I’m not a big fan of New Year’s resolutions, mostly because I get all big with my ideas and decide I’ll run a half-marathon or take up watercolor or start a band. Those big ones go as well as you might expect – right into the “meh” bin. I even thought that challenging myself by telling the blog about them would kick my ass a little bit more, but alas. Not even the power of the blog is strong enough to dislodge my ass from the couch when I do not wish to be moved.
And that’s the thing, I have to want to do it (whatever it is) and not feel like I should aspire to something just because it’s January first. Duh, right? I seem to be a slow learner when it comes to really really simple stuff like that.
So what I’ve decided to do for 2010, my thirtieth year (I’m feeling very into proclaiming my thirty-ness at every opportunity), is to set a goal for each month and see what happens with it. Ideally, yes, I’ll reach the goal and triumph over my laziness, but I’ve failed so many times that the “let’s see what happens with the goal” feels so much more comfortable.
January’s goal was to complete my doula certification portfolio on time, without asking for an extension. And I totally kicked that goal’s ass, you guys. I cranked out all five essays and completed all the paperwork and sent it off within the deadline (thanks to Margaret, who let me hang out with her and her daughter while I wrote parts of it). JANUARY GOAL: ACCOMPLISHED
What I intend to do in February is go to the gym three times a week for the whole month. Who hasn’t heard this song before? But seriously, three times a week for the month of February – that’s only twelve times. I have all kinds of reasons to do this, my health being the biggest one, and it’s just time to do it. I’m not deluded enough to think that I’ll get my 17-year-old high school trackstar body back, but I do want to see what I can do with myself at 30 (THIRTY!).
The rest of the goals for each month are a mystery. I don’t want to set a goal now, in February, for myself in July; I’d rather see where I am and what sounds good to me. Maybe in March I’ll clear out my office and install some shelving. Maybe one month I’ll knit myself a sweater. I know that travel will be part of my plan in the early summer. I’ll just see where the year takes me and set myself a goal for a month, hopefully reaching it but ideally I’ll learn something from it.